observations

So, since I never write about my personal life (ok, that's a lie) trying again...since I Do write about my personal life - the last week has been interesting...
A best friend is moving and will be sorely missed, had a psycho meltdown on the poor man who is / was brave enough to want my company, and a strangely one-sided altercation with a person who has routinely been a bad influence in my life.

It makes me reflect a little, I always thought that as I got more experience that life would be easier - more organized - cleaner. But it really isn't, it's messy, complicated, and a constant learning experience. (frankly if I had picked up on that sooner, I would have stayed in school longer and gotten a PhD) :)

Missing people you love is hard, hurting people you shouldn't is much worse, and realizing you are in charge of how your life goes, is down right frightening at any age!

Makes me value the simple unexpected shimmering moments - sharing time with my son listening to music, a hug from my best friend, a rainbow seen from my balcony, a light show of fireflies on a still and warm summer night. Perhaps these are the reasons we strive and persevere - for these bright moments that linger despite the chaos of every day happenings. Because these small beautiful memories sustain and comfort us in a world so often beyond our control or in spite of our choices.